I’ve hit the wall. This doesn’t make sense… we had a great gig the other night and I got a lovely review,
all has been going great with the music and the crazy juggle with the kids… but here I am again… at a wall. Flat. Exhausted.
This little message is coming to mind:
People have asked me, ‘how do you do it’ with 4 kids and getting up and playing music…
1st of all I ignore my kids too much. Any woman who seems to be ‘doing it all’ either has a lot of help from family, has their kids in childcare, so they’re not actually doing it all, they are getting someone else to mind the kids. (my option from the past when I ran a fashion business! I had a lovely nanny- I wasn’t doing it all- at all!)
OR they don’t give their kids all their attention (ME NOOOOW!)
2nd– although the music part is more work and sometimes exhausting, it also GIVES me energy back. I’d say psychological and spiritual energy.
3th– I’m an anxious restless type of person so I don’t cope well with being in a house all the time with kids (actually – not many people do!) so there’s no virtue in it, it’s just tending to a mental health need I have! hehe
4th– I don’t do it. I hit the wall all the time. I feel sick and exhausted and overwhelmed a lot of the time. I become weird and annoying after taking on too much (ask my husband!) and then my family suffers for it.(on the flip side, my kids all sing around the house now that I do and because I go out more, my husband goes out to enjoy a beer more often that he used to which is healthy!)
There are a few confessional TRUTH NUGGETS as my friend calls them… be very suspicious of those women ‘doing it all’ I say!
I HAVE SO MUCH RESPECT for those women who can humbly live a simple life and focus on LOVE.
Right, I’ll keep this late night tired cranky writing short- I can see where it’s heading!
I’m still working out whether my music NEED is pure or not… in the meantime, I’m loving it BUT….right now… walls walls walls!!!!!
will keep you posted! 🙂
PS. Just watched this. It’s good!!